Dear Suicide, Video (MV)

It's all in my head
I'm stuck in my bed
You left me on read
I'm already dead
F*ck
I ate all the sedatives
Under my bed
I've been keeping them hid
For the day that I had
Enough
I've had enough of this shit
All this pain that I have
When I finally split
My own sick brain in half
With a knife I could slit
Or through the brain with a mag
But I know I can't slip
Because I'm paving a path

Dear Suicide
You've been here the whole time
My ride or die
And everything I despise

Do I have your attention
Cause I forgot to mention
This pain and this tension that I have been nesting
Is what I'm investing into your impression
Of what keeps me from resting
And the fact that you always come back from the next things
The only thing keeping me up it's depressing
Just knowing I'm never enough or the best thing
To happen for anyone else is a festering
Thought in my head that I keep on suppressing
But the darker it gets the better I'm getting

Dear Suicide
You've been here the whole time
My ride or die
And everything I despise
Dear Suicide
I've had enough of your lies
I'm out of time
And I can't fix my life

I'm over it I f*cking quit
I've finally had enough of it
These games I play to get through the day
Keep me up all night and shit
I'm broken beaten bruised and burned
From all these f*cking scars I've earned
I guess you could say that I never learned
Cause I'm still writing out this verse

Dear Suicide
You've been here the whole time
My ride or die
And everything I despise
Dear Suicide
I've had enough of your lies
I'm out of time
And I can't fix my life