B Dot Fresh - Open Letter Lyrics

Dear Listener
This is an open letter
Telling y'all how I been feelin'
I think some people will be able to relate
I hope this helps
Thank you for listening
Enjoy
I got no dreams to chase (to chase, to chase, to chase)
'Cause I don't sleep no
I'm always awake
So many nights I waste (I waste, I waste, I waste)
Just overthinking
Myself is killing me
I spend my nights lying awake
Layin' out just thinkin' about all of my mistakes
And lately people telling me they'd like to trade their place
But I don't see just what they seein' when they look into my face
'Cause when I look into the mirror I don't see much else
All I'm seein' is the people who exceed myself
You used to want my advice now you don't need my help
They try relating to me sayin' how they feel I felt
But you don't know shit about me and the deal I'm dealt
I run the knife across my hand 'cause I don't feel much else
I throw my body on the sword I'm tryna steel myself
And everything up in this game I had to steal myself
Now I'm constantly just overthinking every decision
Second guessing what I've written hell to every revision
I was sent out on a mission darkness clouding my vision
But now I'm dealin' with devil under his supervision
Thats just the cost me livin'
'Cause i
I got no dreams to chase (to chase, to chase, to chase)
(I got no dreams to chase)
'Cause I don't sleep no
(you know I don't sleep)
I'm always awake
(Always awake)
So many nights I waste (I waste, I waste, I waste)
(So many nights)
Just overthinking
Myself is killing me
I've played my life so defensive now I'm on the attack
Cookin' shit up like I'm Gordon but its gone in a Flash
Overthinking when I'm drinking pourin' more from the flask
But shit its gone so fast
I feel like I'm the only one who sees the damage I'm doing
But I hide it so well that I can't blame 'em for snoozing
They buyin' what I sell so they don't see that I'm losing
And I'm just tryin to compel 'em they don't think I'm intruding
I live my life in the dark a match my only escape
Tryna keep it at bay
The shit I easily say
Just to show 'em I'm okay and I don't need their assistance
When really I'm just living live I'm always imprisoned
See I'm my own worst enemy I hope I can kill him
But which of me gon' really die if thats the shit I envision
I dont know myself but shit I thought that I did
And I hate myself for all the shit that I did
Now I
I got no dreams to chase (to chase, to chase, to chase)
(I got no dreams to chase)
'Cause I don't sleep no
(You know I don't sleep)
I'm always awake
(Always awake)
So many nights I waste (I waste, I waste, I waste)
(So many nights)
Just overthinking
(Yeah)
Myself is killing me
I play it close to my chest
I gotta couple cards that I'mma hold in my vest
I keep a couple secrets not exposin' 'em yet
And you may never learn the truth so stop holdin' your breath
'Cause man I been so depressed
Feel like I get no respect
I gotta lotta memories I'm keep 'em repressed
'Cause they're the source of all my sadness yeah they leavin' me stressed
But now a lotta people askin' why I'm even upset
And all of 'em just actin like I chose this life
Like this is really what I want to be alone at night
And feel so cold inside
But when I close my eyes
I can see the better days and I know I'm right
So I just gotta keep on grindin' why are y'all so salty
No such thing as perfect timing and nobody stop me
Even though I got a heart that is colder than hockey
I got my own back if nobody else got me
So I
I got no dreams to chase (to chase, to chase, to chase)
(I got some dreams to chase)
'Cause I don't sleep no
(No I don't got time to sleep)
I'm always awake
(I'm always awake)
So many nights I waste (I waste, I waste, I waste)
(No time to waste)
Just overthinking
Myself is killing me
This is my dream
And I'm gonna follow it even if it kills me
Whats yours?
Remember
You are never alone
Sincerely
B