Hoodie Video (MV)

Knew I couldn't record without talking bout you
So I didn't record, avoid talking bout you
You were my mom and my best friend
But you always said, your time would end
I woke up on Friday, I knew
12 hours later, I made it to you
You could barely breathe, we on constant alert
Wanted you out of pain, but we were still hurt
Midnight came, you still holding
Laid beside you, the moment frozen
Showed you pictures, of my 1-year-old
I left the room, your heart went cold
I tried to drink, I barely slept
To this day, still hard to accept
When your mom gone, you don't know what to do
Not a day goes by, I miss you.

I was 16 when I started smoking weed
I was 17, thought about killing myself
That doesn't rhyme, but I had to say it
The two connected? Nah, too basic
I had everything, that I ever needed
But in the world, I didn't feel needed
No one would miss me, no big deal
Everyone'd be fine, thought that for real
I came out of it, happiness set back in
When I turned 20, them dark thoughts were waiting
The girl I loved, wasn't with me
I was all alone walking the small city
I have depression, undiagnosed
No meds, glad I'm not close
But if I'm withdrawn, with my hoodie on
Please give me space, don't leave me alone.

You called me up, told me that you needed help
I told you sit tight, you weren't by yourself
You said the drinking was killing you and you wanna stop
I wish I knew that'd be the last time we talked
Days later, you were in the hospital
Mom had cancer, dad needed a doctor
You beat cancer, surely you'd beat this
While you slept, into your room I crept
I held your hand, I know I wept
I prayed to the Lord to keep you with me
You woke up as I made my move to leave
You put your arms up, I couldn't take you with me
It was Friday, when I got the call
I was numb, from the shock of it all
When your mom pass, you don't know what to do
Time's passed, I'm still lost without you.