Bad Emotions - Worst Enemy Lyrics

I was searching for a savior
But I found a demon
Kick me out but pull me back
When I get to leaving
Hold on so hard
I forgot my freedom
Now I'm with the one I love
But my soul is weeping
Whoever knew that you could turn into my worst enemy
Should have sent a f*cking memo cause you got the best of me
Over and over, I'm thinking it's over, pull over the rover cause i got a chip on my shoulder
I'm getting colder and colder
I'm a cadaverous misogynist
Disaster will procure a list
That tells us all the lies built
A fragile sad relationship
That lacked the trust that masked
The past that our connection built
A sword without the hilt
A kid without the quilt
I need some questions that can only be answered
By a misdirected feeling that turned us into actors
The fact
Of the matter
Is that I am not past her
I pray to the pastor
But what does it matter?
We're all gonna die anyway
Sailing through the sky
On the wings without the plane
How could you say that you were in love
When you don't feel the pain
How can you tell a day is good without the cold rain
How can you reap the whole reward without the f*cking gain
I think things don't ever feel the same
I think that it's been messing with my brain
Damn I wish this was just a game
I think I'm about going insane

I been wasting all my time
Now the time watch me
Wrote the script on the flip
Then she flipped it on me
Always doing the best that I can
I'm more than a friend
But I'm like a stranger in my head
When it weighs on me

Stompin atop of my heart
Pulling the pieces apart
Keeping a shard
Slittin my throat wasn't hard
When the one that you love doesn't guard
Against the obviously dangerous
Poison laid between your hips
It wasn't love it wasn't shit
I'm telling every bitter bit
Of bone in my body
The lies couldn't stop me
I'm blinded by the simple f*cking fact
That you were all that I wanted
And I'm trying to save it
I need it I crave it
Regardless of the pain you created
You cracked my soul on the pavement