Before (feat. Kasper) Video (MV)

I don't know how to feel
No I don't know how to feel
No I don't know how to feel yea...
And I don't know how to feel
And I don't know how to feel...

Done with life so go ahead an get me lifted
And if my hellish demons come, I was never christian
Sorry for the days I tried to put you at a distance
Like life left me breatheless
Like it said good riddance
Why don't we blow the snow try at least to get to Christmas
I use to run the game awhile back, I'm back on fitness
I used to do a lot, but do a lot, I never listened
My demons came and made a wishlist
So I come and get it
And I did or didnt
But man I don't remember
That money, gas is what I could of lent ya
That money vacuum spender
Well if life's a fairy tale
Why is you the pretender
I'm the worst contestant
But I still consider
To be the best contender
When life had more value
It was never tender
But what was last September
Man what do I remember
That shit was never cherished, that shit was lended

I don't know how to feel
No I don't know how to feel
No I don't know how to feel yea...

I hope you're happy
Sleepless nights become painless just like I'm hooked on addy
But I'm hooked on you
Been in my head for a minute, maybe I lost some screws
But I miss you more
Been a long time and I guess you're bored
Should've known this was a double edge sword
Heard those words, then I hit the floor, damn
Whats life like
Cause right now I'm livin' in the past life
Been days when I don't know how to act right
Suicidal thoughts, then I lose sight
Flashback to the good times
Sometimes wanna rewind
To better days when I'm not so depressed
And I walk around school with a puffed up chest but
I'm just a shell
No emotion here
Cause we live in hell
Funny how love just turn to hate
Life fast forwards and I'm runnin' late well
I don't miss you now
Time flies by when you not around
All you ever did was put me down
Sad ass f*ck but I'll take the crown, shit
I'll be happy soon, maybe one day touch the moon
But today these words will last forever
As I start my quest for something better