Not Forever Video (MV)

Inhaling this white cloud irritating the chest
Through the nose so loud yet putting my mind to rest
Exhale n smoke rolls slow dissipating my stress
Ashes fall to the floor tho it's a beautiful mess
Cherry is burning slow honey berry the scent
Zig zags under flow im tryna make some sense
Clusters from what I know darkness starts to get dense
These days I been solo write to beat in my chest
Eyes trackin the pen tip every stroke blood drip
Till this page resembles flags no sleep so eyes sag
Diggin deep in my bag frustrated pull out a mag
Not now let go glaze over the eye starts to grow
When it rains it pours water rose over the floor
Like a faucet leaking over time wood starts creaking
It gets heavy it breaks levees then gets buried
It gets scary if u ain't ready so hold steady
Thoughts told till I cough due to warm smoke
Call this set in stone when I say my heart broke
Call this set in stone when I say my

I never wanted to be like this nooo
Close my eyes I still feel your kiss nooo
It's crazy sorrow replaced the bliss nooo
No matter how hard I wish nooo
Lonely on my endeavor
No this won't be forever
No this won't be forever
No this can't be forever no

On my tenth modelo pop top lighter to it
Mind saying don't heart yelling do it
Glass touches lips like man f*ck it screw it
Pain relief through glass whether bottle or pipe
Alcoholic stain no matter how hard i wipe
But what the f*ck happens when grams turns to dabs
Henny bottle turns black not enough get the crack (Uh nah)
When none of it works n I need a f*cken heroin
Blissful caped lady in my veins come to defend
Don't save me I can swim let me drown in my shame
I know I understand that the feelings ain't the same
I can't see her face or even read out her name
Heart sinks when I do but know that u I don't blame
I ain't shit really when I go don't bury don't pray
Just leave me in a ditch and let my memory fade away
I know some of y'all this you don't wanna see
But I paint this f*cken picture coz its my reality
The unexpected gave up on me
But for those who didn't I wanna say thank you g

I never wanted to be like this nooo
Close my eyes I still feel your kiss nooo
It's crazy sorrow replaced the bliss nooo
No matter how hard I wish nooo
Lonely on my endeavor
No this won't be forever
No this won't be forever
No this can't be forever no

I never wanted to be like this nooo
Close my eyes I still feel your kiss nooo
It's crazy sorrow replaced the bliss nooo
No matter how hard I wish nooo
Lonely on my endeavor
No this won't be forever
No this won't be forever
No this can't be forever no