banríon - first love Lyrics

Felt it in the way you didn't text
In the way you held my hair back
And the way you got undressed
I want to be the girl that you could like
But always liking never loving
Starts to hurt when giving back
I'm sick of playing first love
And coming in the last place
I think I need a change-up
If somebody wants me
Tell me there's a way that I could be
Someone's favourite without lying
To seem more interesting
I'm upset so I'm sleeping in my clothes
Dunno why I choose to do it
When I'm choosing to be gross
I'm sick of playing first love
And coming in the last place
I think I need a change-up
If somebody wants me
Found it in a pool of shallow water
In a rock that I turned over
As I was looking at the dirt
A seashell with a mirrored kind of surface
And I felt a little purpose
As I was looking back at me
I'm sick of playing first love
And coming in the last place
I think I need a change-up
I think I need to like me