Barretta - Westerburg High Lyrics

10-two-23
This is my first journal entry I bought this book three months ago
I have been searching and praying for answers
On this day I am low enough to give it a real shot
She told me she was done on Friday I can't say I'm surprised
I've struggled with intimacy and self-worth since June
And I know our dynamic wouldn't survive through my pain
That sounds conceited but I truly love her
Inevitable surprises seem to be the most painful
I want to know how I wronged her
I feel so torn that her guilt pushed me away
That sucks I didn't even want an apology or her to feel bad
I wanted her to love me the way she used to
I forgave her the moment I met her
I try to be concise with how I feel but it never works
I've heard so many stories since I found out what happened
I wish I could know which ones were true
I feel like I broke her
She wasn't always this way I hope someday she can read this
Not for guilt but so she can still have a tangible part of me
She's all I want
Sometimes I feel like I have lost all of my dignity
I can't tell if it has hurt me or caused me to love harder
It is hard to not utter her name every time I open my lips
I don't think they could ever belong to someone else
I hope hers haven't
I want her pain to go away
It isn't fair