Barryle - Don't. Lyrics

Young boy, scared of being a disappointment
He tried and tried but in his heart he couldn't love a woman
Little brother keep your mouth closed don't you say nothing
From elementary kept his secret cause f*ck it I loved him
Where I was coming up, they beat yo a** if you gay
Got in trouble a few times, I would fight for his name
Dear momma I'm so sorry, wish I said something sooner
I was too young to understand why turtles hide in sewers
Cause see like mutants, people treated gay like it was death
So only now I understand why you kept it to self
Same time like you so f*cking selfish you left
And I needed you my selfishness was asking for help
So if I could say one thing to you, hear me you won't
AIDS don't come to play, Thomas answer your phone
Your lil brother is calling tryna save you I know
That you're too busy living life to see death was calling too
Part of me ended, with the period that ended you
I never told you were beautiful living in truth
That night you left your dorm was a fatal one
Wish I could've told you don't
The moon is only as bright as sun allows it to be
So I'll keep my light, cause you are the sun that's inside of me
I wish I could save you
I wish I could save you
Look at what you're doing quit abusing yourself
It's foolish, to do this, you're beauty in wealth
I knew from the hue of your mood, you needed my help
Cause I too, have had views of new me after death
And I can't sit and tell you it'll be better with time
Cause if I do and I'm lying, after time you'll rewind to this moment and I be reason why
Suicide is your ride to the afterlife
So this I have to write
F*ck it I have to try
The manure you endure got you filling diaper pails with regret
You taste fear in his sweat, as it drips from his neck
On your chest and a splash hit your lips
As he steals your first kiss from your lips bloom a broken flower
Your power bleeds down your legs as you beg him to stop
But he won't, I hope you don't do it
The moon is only as bright as sun allows it to be
So I'll keep my light, cause you are the sun that's inside of me
I wish I could save you
I wish I could save you
I've been through hell, you don't know how I f*cking feel
I see my sons and wonder if I was an ugly kid
How could my daddy look at me and not fall in dad
How could a son that bears his name not make you dad
Did you not kiss my lips, or my cheeks, or my hands or my feet
Or hair, did you stare in my eyes and see nothing
You's a bitch I hope you get what you got coming
I've been a star since she birth I must've been blinding
Cause you couldn't see, that your son was shining
Your son was trying, to be something you would care about
Now it's f*ck you ni**a
Look me in my eye and see a lion's heart
I did without you ni**a, you're the one I'm crying for
Cause you missed your shot, now your bullet has become a killer
You missed your shot not your bullet is aiming at you ni**a
Don't flinch
The moon is only as bright as sun allows it to be
So I'll keep my light, cause you are the sun that's inside of me
I wish I could save you
I wish I could save you