I feel the pressure to be great
So I need a lot of energy to create
I mostly get it from people I can speak to once a week late
That tell me how they relate
All my friends are in a deep state
So we talk about the things societies take
Always lookin' for the thing bigger than the bigger thing
That's bigger than the thing it made us wanna negate
And momma told me not to see hate
But mom I saw too many people think of me bate
So familiar with fear my memory crate
Is full of these deficiencies impossible to rebate
So I spent the time that we ain't
Listenin' to Marshall Mathers talk to me straight
While the bullyin' increases at a steep rate
I thought of suicide but the music had taught me restraint
My tea's gone cold
I'm wonderin' why I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
And even if I could it would all be gray
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad
It's not so bad
I met a girl named Nikita, she's like a sweepstake
Funny, smart, young, intelligent, upbeat, saint
If this is not the type of girl I see for me, wait
She's only eighteen, I wish she was twenty-eight
At least she had a free date
I hope she finds someone that's decent as a teammate
Someone that teaches her it's not about ideal weight
But deals weight in love and has enough ideals to debate
And I'm just thankful I can see straight
She's got so much to learn in life for we can equate
And yet I think about her all the time and how to make her seem taint
I think I'm just attracted to the clean slate
But outside of all the feels, fate
Has put me back into a state of mind that peace can't
So I can finally get back to making beats, wake at least
Seven days a week, create and sleep, and rewake
And that's that type of shit I need, state
So many bigger things in life I'm tryin' to pre-date
I sure as hell do not believe in havin' demons at the steel gate
So workin' on myself just never feels late
I think that's all there's really meant to be, ache,
'Cause when there's ever any peace inside it seems fake
And who am I to judge if that's a guaranteed trait
All I know is I feel the pressure to be great