Bee Jammin' - Overthoughts Lyrics

Life is pretty rough I'm tryna think straight
Overthinking everything is not okay
I need a direction to get through this maze
I don't know what to do except for crawling through each day
These demons are terrorizing my heart and mind
I'll never let them win but it's difficult to fight
God please walk me to the right path
So I'm not sitting in my room writing depressing raps
"Maybe you need to spend more time meeting people"
For me it's not always easy trying to mingle
I'm sorry but it's the way I am
If you don't like me, make my life easy and scram
Man, my apologies for being sad
Harnessing myself so I don't think about the past
It's so easy going back
Living through every moment having everything I had, yeah
Long term happiness is gone
Adulting swings by like a bat, never hitting home runs
Running around like in a track meet
Seems like getting to the finish line is a long reach
I wanna be normal but it's hard
Autism inside me since the very start
All of you don't see it cause I play it off
Don't wanna get bullied because this cruel world gives me enough
Fact: my family knows me better than I do
Cause they hid my autism till 2018 it's true
If you see it as a diss
Let me correct you, just speaking facts, no shots taken I promise
19 years old, telling me to have optimism
There's a road ahead, not looking at the pessimism
Definitely need some help but I will stick around
Never forget to mention, the future is now

Thinking about my sins, holy water wash it
I'm sorry God for putting you in a closet
I really need you, thanks for being the shining light
And keeping our amends, making sure I'm all right

Keeping my hands held high
Because the world needs you to come
Hopefully tomorrow, I don't wanna cry
Or feel numb