Begonia - Feel It Lyrics

And I won't forget last september
Standing in a parking lot the street lit up
You said come on it gets better
Couldn't find the nerve to say I disagree
So i got in my car rolled the windows down
Let my hand go with the breeze

Crying or is it laughing
Am I dying I'm just asking
Silver lining I know we all need one
But all the ways i've heard you use your words
It don't make me wanna believe them

Look around me and feel there's something I must be missing
From where I was to where I am now there's just too much distance

And I can't feel it
If I don't see it
I'm numb to it all in a way everyday everyday
And I can't see it
So I don't feel it
I don't feel at all

My emotions have a range from
Deep self loathing to pure elation
Wish I could float above my own body
Wish I could stop caring about how I think you see me

Dreaming of the day my ego takes the fall
Fantasize of ways that I could let go of it all

And I can't feel it
If I don't see it
I'm numb to it all in a way everyday everyday
And I can't see it
So I don't feel it
I don't feel at all"