Benedikt Clay - Grown Up Lyrics

Two decades passed in the blink of an eye
Did I forget to open them or why
Can't I recall being a child
Was I ever really alive
I never liked how much life lies

Am I Grown Up?
Is this what it feels like to be
Grown Up
Is this what it means to be
Grown Up
Is this what it feels like to be
Grown Up
Is this what it means?

(You've got time!)
But I don't
I could cry but I won't
Written deep in my bones
Lie the answers in code
And I'll chase all of those
Till I'm buried in stones
Isn't that how life goes

I've got time but I don't
I should cry but I won't
Was there a chance for my soul
If I'd known what I chose
Just me and a Bass
Alone in this race
Is that how my life goes

Cause now I'm Grown Up
All the ways in front of me
Only to be blown up
The ruins I'll always see

And now I'm Grown Up
Once the chase is behind me
Then I'll have to own up
To the ruins I'll always see

So much potential to unfold
So many skies to uphold

(So much)
Countless responsibilities
(Potential to unfold)
Weighing down on my shoulders
(So many)
Endless contingencies
(Way to many skies to uphold)
While I'm only getting older

Is this what it feels like to be
Grown up
Is this what it means

And now I'm Grown Up
But all my dreams are being crushed
Yeah I'm Grown Up
And all the doors seem shut