Benji Kaine - Nobody Lyrics

Nobody Knows
Im heartless and cold
It gets so hard on this road, oh oh

Momma im sorry if I let you down, let you down
I been trying hard to make my father proud, father proud
Somebody help me please, Im calling out
Theres nothing easy bout my life I took the hardest route
Nobody knows, nobody knows
Im heartless and cold it gets so hard on this road, oh oh
Somebody help me please im calling out
Theres nothing easy bout my life I took the hardest route

I keep writing song after song and it still don't get better
These problems they pile up like letters
Im getting desperate im prolly got go sell my soul to the devil
Im sick of the way that im living im under the weather
We was all posed to come up together
I coulda done better but f*ck it
Now im second guessing myself with this gun to my temple
Im stressing myself out
They keep asking for help
How the f*ck ima help em if I can't even help myself out
I feel like a book on a shelf
My confidence down and the insecurities inside me make me not wan look at myself
But f*ck it ima keep on going cuz I know I got it if if I just keep pushing myself
And the drugs don't help no more
They just making me paranoid, give me anxiety
I know my friends gettin tired of me, I don't give em any privacy
Somethings going on inside of me
When Chester died, something died in me
Abusive homes, drug addicts and poverty
Wish I could change it, but that's how its gotta be
I been running from something inside of my dreams at night
Sometimes I wish I had a easy life
I been traumatized by my childhood
Causing me to wake up out my sleep at night
In a deep depression I aint eating right
The bitch I loved, she aint treat me right
I turned to drugs to find inner peace
I need inner strength cuz im too weak to fight

Momma im sorry if I let you down, let you down
I been trying hard to make my father proud, father proud
Somebody help me please, Im calling out
Theres nothing easy bout my life I took the hardest route
Nobody knows, nobody knows
Im heartless and cold it gets so hard on this road, oh oh
Somebody help me please im calling out
Theres nothing easy bout my life I took the hardest route

My cousin just called me and told me he love me
I told him I miss him
I told him im sorry we aint been in touch with each other
But f*ck that im keeping my distance
I don't trust nobody now
2 Years ago I was in prison
I wonder if they even know I was down
Outa sight outta mind
I wonder if someone kept track of how long I was down
And sometimes I cry when nobody around
Im so high I look down and say bye to the ground
From the top to the ground
I kept it solid wit potnas who talked about me when im not around
They drug my name through the dirt
Yeah thats how them rumors had got around
Must have fell in her heart and got hurt
Had to f*ck her for get back, she hit back, I shot her down
Empty bottles on my counter top
I been off the porch been around the block
They keep blowing my phone up
I been gone so much they don't know if im in town or not
Yeah I been down and out
I been up so long, I don't know if im down or not
I been counted out, I been lost & afraid
Don't know if I wanna be found or not

Momma im sorry if I let you down, let you down
I been trying hard to make my father proud, father proud
Somebody help me please, Im calling out
Theres nothing easy bout my life I took the hardest route
Nobody knows, nobody knows
Im heartless and cold it gets so hard on this road, oh oh
Somebody help me please im calling out
Theres nothing easy bout my life I took the hardest route