Better Vibes - Heavy Skin Lyrics

I know that I've had harder days
But it doesn't make it easier
These days, I don't want to feel a thing
I just want my head to be clear
My mind runs far away from me
To places I don't want to go
I pull it in, pull it in so I can see
All the ways I feel low

And I'm wearing my skin like I am someone else
And it's heavy, the most uncomfortable I've felt
Am I sorry for all I felt but never said?
Well I should be if I was in control of my own head

I wish that you could have seen me when
I was younger than I am now
You might have seen what could have been
Before my body gave out
Now I am feeling all the years
As they start to dance around me
And take on a face so insincere
It's nothing like I thought it'd be

Depreciate, disintegrate

And I'm wearing my skin like I am someone else
And it's heavy, the most uncomfortable I've felt
Am I sorry for all I felt but never said?
Well I should be if I was in control of my own head