Beyond Montana - Awake Lyrics

I've been lying to myself
All these memories on the shelf, and I
Can't remember a time when I
Wasn't trying not to self-implode
Always running with nowhere to go
I need to take the time so I
Breathe in. Space out
Slow up. Lay down
Why do I always do these things to me
It's not logical. I know it's stupid
But I'm done making excuses
I know who I am
I need to focus on my health
It's clear I have the choice, me myself or die
And I'll forgive the times that I
Fell down. Gave in. Messed up. Lost out
And I'm exactly where I need to be
I'm not sleeping on myself
Even if I go through hell to find my peace
I'm not sleeping on myself
Wide awake to everything I need to be
All these reason why I'm up all night
Stuck in my mind. The exit sign
Illuminated not wasting time
I'm finding light
It's fight or flight
I'm wide awake