Big Camz - November Lyrics

You could be the one
It ain't you

I'm sick and tired of all these fights I'm tryna hop on all these flights
I had a shawty take my heart and dump it Man, that wasn't tight
Man, she did a lot of things Messin' with this mind
She knew my head was like a jail cell, I'm doin' life

I'm tryna be optimistic bout a future with my wife
I couldn't hold on to that feeling, son, I gave it all to Christ
He seen this unseasoned Christian, and he added a little spice
Man, let me tell you somethin', G-O-D cookin' nice

Let me set the scene, October 17th I had an noti on my screen
This is shawty, we been talkin', she finna pull up on the team
So my heart race and my anxiety got me pacin
Pretty good at dodgin' bullets like a youngin' in the matrix

Man, like all this time I wasted I waste my heart, waste my time
Stole my books, stole my vibe, then she cheated
Stole my paper, said, I love you, see you later
Took a dump when all I gave her, nowadays

Okay, it's months later, I've been grindin', gettin' paper
Turnin' off all these emotions, somehow makin' me feel safer
I mean, I'm pretty good, man, I ain't ballin' like no Laker

But like, I've been feelin' foolish, I got had by a player
Shawty really mess me up like I'm in therapy now
I used to walk around with my head high in the clouds
But like, ever since you hurt me, life been bringin' me down

Couldn't be the one, shawty, even if you tried
Gave you my last dollar, you wanted my last dime
But you can keep the money, just run me back my time
You can keep the money, just run me back that time

I'm on the better things, I can stay in the past
When I look at pictures of you, I can't help but feel bad
Cause you ain't know what you had, I watch you fumble that bag
And I know your friends be askin', like, what happened with that

And I wonder, what kinda lies you be tellin'
Cause I know you like to paint fake pictures and sell em
I guess you don't speak of memories on Belgium
And you got a new man, I can't wait till I tell him

Sometimes, I still think about November nights
November skies, they make me remember November lies
I let you inside my life, you met the homies
I ain't gon' lie, yeah, home girl really been on my mind

Okay, late nights, staring right into your eyes
You had me hypnotized, now when I remember November
Yeah, I know that's where trauma lies
So I try my hardest to be the perfect artist

But you left me so traumatized