Big Nozy - Should I Dream (feat. Beats by Con) Lyrics

I've been feeling paranoid living on the edge
Give the demons reasons to yell inside my head
Tearing me apart like a lion in a shed
I'm a shell of the kid that used to hope and dream
And a fragment of the man that I aspired once to be
Could I grow to be what I'm supposed to be
Or is it time to see that living ain't for me
Living in delusions simulations of amusement
Living through the bruises I just dip my head keep moving
Wishing for a moment I could be myself and hold it
Lucid state to dream these visions seem to me to be more than I could see
A trusting sense for weak trapped in lock and key
I don't think that I'm a king
A 21st century Charles Manson
Limp
At the end of a string
A puppet sort to speak
A puppet sort to speak
Should I dream
Should I try
Is living just my hell
Or should I try and fly
Should I dream
Should I try
Is living just my hell
Or should I try and fly
Ten years things be different
But I'll still be a loner, aggressive
Deluded, deflective
Labeled, pathetic
Do I gotta change
I'm living for myself ain't no one think I'm sane
Ain't no one try to help
The past is where I dwell
Looking back upon mistakes and how I dealt
With rejection deception feeling like hell
Feeling neglected and crying from a cell
I'm becoming one with the person I confront
Chilling with a gun
Scared to rise above
Distortions of my image
Giving me a minute a single chance to be whatever my ambition
I'm inching close to be a vision I've depicted
I fear my life to be another stat or difference
A numbered algorithm
Another figure on a screen
Scared to be expendable
Should I dream
Should I try
Is living just my hell
Or should I try and fly
Should I dream
Should I try
Is living just my hell
Or should I try and fly
A flower in the sun
Growing going easy
Doesn't got to run
Doesn't need a beating
My heart inside a bottle
Drowning in the liquor
My failures never startle
My downfall starting quicker
Do I wanna drown in my own delusions
Living with a crown built with my confusion
I am not a king
I am not a god
I'm living as a man
I'm tryna' fall apart
Just a house of cards
Sitting in the wind
Falling must be hard but I think I need to win
Tryna' hold my own carry all my sins
Everywhere I go I feel like I'm a kid
Walking all alone people are a home
And they all gone I could feel it in my soul
A dog without a bone
Desolate I roam
I'm just looking for my home
I'm just looking for my home