Black Kaspa - Forever Pain (Song for Mama) Lyrics

I don't kno where to start, first off u had my heart
The day he took u was the first time it got torn apart
Cryin and breakin down cause takin it was somethin hard
Drinkin to ease the pain, I felt permanent scars
I was scared & was stressin, u was my biggest blessing
Now I'm tryna guide the siblings but I'm needing direction
This was heavy lesson somethin to take in stride
Knowin that anything can happen made me come alive
Momma I'm so sorry, u was so effin strong
I should've listened when u said one day u could be gone
I don't kno what to do I just want u to come back home
Come back from work cussin is out like it ain't nothin wrong
U taught me everything, made me the person I am
So as long as I'm alive I'll always be ur fan
I'll always keep ur name alive, to u I'm always prayin
U gotta feel this type of pain For u to understand
Don't wanna think without u
Don't wanna sleep without u, All I do is dream about u
Don't wanna eat without, can't have peace without u
I wanna call and talk so All I do is drink without u, Momma
Don't wanna think without u
Don't wanna sleep without u, All I do is dream about u
Don't wanna eat without, can't have peace without u
I wanna call and talk so All I do is drink without u, Momma
I remember wakin up that mornin, Lil sis was callin
Sayin to hurry up and get up I need u to call'em
Instantly felt a pain, I knew somethin was wrong
I couldn't understand the feeling that's achin my bones
U was a single mom, took care of 7 on ur own
U were the only that would never leave us alone
And now we live in different states, most of us on our own
Raisin our own kids, check wit each other on the phone
Just doin the best we can, laugh just to hide the pain
Knowin deep down that nothin will ever be the same
When I'm alone I grab ur picture just to kiss ur face
Wishing in life that it was anything that I could change
Don't wanna think without u
Don't wanna sleep without u, All I do is dream about u
Don't wanna eat without, can't have peace without u
I wanna call and talk so All I do is drink without u, Momma
Don't wanna think without u
Don't wanna sleep without u, All I do is dream about u
Don't wanna eat without, can't have peace without u
I wanna call and talk so All I do is drink without u, Momma