Tryin' Not to Lose It Video (MV)

I don't even see my nephews or nieces
I can't tell you why the family is beefing
I sit alone trying not to believe it
You ain't got nothing good to say then why you speaking
Addicted to it no excuses someone else to do it
So they can see improvements trying not to lose it
God ain't put me through it
They tell me leave this life alone but I'm addicted to it
Gotta do it on my own ain't making no excuses
If I can't treat you right girl someone else a do it
Let me focus on myself so they can see improvements
I been so high trying not to lose it
Thinking would I be this strong if God ain't put me through it
One day I'm chilling with my dog now I'm at his viewing
Hoping I can be forgiven all this wrong I'm doing
Hoping I could be forgiven all this wrong I done
People tell me everyday that I'm the chosen one
Devil on my shoulder angel on the other one
I want a patek on my wrist and on the other one
I think I will never ever fall in love again
All this confrontation what I'm having trouble with
I know I'm the shit I could rub it in
So you know I gotta ball and go above the rim
I know niggas locked down stuck up in the pin
Another body drop and shots wasn't meant for him
They a tell you right now I'm the realest in
You needed help when I was down but I ain't mention it
I never met nobody like you what I hear a lot
You hear the cops I'm like Proactive how I clear the spot
I got four grams inside a wood a double cup of wok
People in my ear and I swear this all they ever talk about man
They tell me leave this life alone but I'm addicted to it
Gotta do it on my own ain't making no excuses
If I can't treat you right girl someone else a do it
Let me focus on myself so they can see improvements
I been so high trying not to lose it
Thinking would I be this strong if God ain't put me through it
One day I'm chilling with my dog now I'm at his viewing
Hoping I can be forgiven all this wrong I'm doing
I don't even see my nephews or nieces
I can't tell you why the family is beefing
I sit alone trying not to believe it
You ain't got nothing good to say then why you speaking
I remember daddy threw me in the deep end
Got in the streets but they ain't trap me in the deep end
You jumping in the field bring yah cleats then
People gon do what they wanna I can't teach them
No no no no no
Some gotta learn on they own own own own own
If I could do it all again I repeat it
Gotta heart but I feel like I don't need it
I ain't got nothing to hide you can see it
You gotta life so go and live it homie beat it beat it
They tell me leave this life alone but I'm addicted to it
Gotta do it on my own ain't making no excuses
If I can't treat you right girl someone else a do it
Let me focus on myself so they can see improvements
I been so high trying not to lose it
Thinking would I be this strong if God ain't put me through it
One day I'm chilling with my dog now I'm at his viewing
Hoping I can be forgiven all this wrong I'm doing
All this wrong
All this wrong all this wrong