Blackstheg - My Life is Like a Novel Unread (feat. Selfmade) Lyrics

My life is like a novel unread, a story fed with both love and hatred
Why my eyes stay red? Not because of the tears, but because of the wears
I had to face all my fears and put my shifter in gear
Years of struggles with fools got me kicked out of schools
College life had me feeling educated. I got cocky then I never even graduated
I never even graduated
I got a lot on my mind, so I spell it out one rhyme at a time
I spent my whole life living lawless, perfecting this flow until it was flawless
All about making that dough regardless
And as we hustle popos pull us over just to stall us
Dogs sniff the dosure so they can say they caught us
I'm living like a soldier, hoping that the knowledge I tried to gain in college
Will translate to dollars
All the brothers fronting like they ballers
My partners growing up to be good for nothing alcoholics
And state is a state, I don't know what else to call it
I'ma tell the truth like I saw it
Every single G that I know either locked or departed
Shocked to report this, I stopped to record it
Government watch and ignored it
How can a brother man not be distorted
All that weed that I smoked and the coke they be snorting
Morphed into forces, darker than morbid
The pain in my vein flows out every organ
Now from the block to the office
It rings from the bing to the homage
Blackstheg grimey for trying to be polished
Maybe one day I can stop being honest
My life is like the novel unread
Stories fed with both love and hatred
Why my eyes stay red
Not because of the tears, but because of the wears
I had to face all my fears and put my shifter in gear
Years of struggles with fools got me kicked out of schools
College life had me feeling educated
I got cocky then I never even graduated
I never even graduated
They try to put me on to live a better life
Better out, but sins of the fathers don't travel light
And even when you move in the shadows gotta travel light
Cause any given time is split decisions or you die tonight
That's the life
Many of the nights I had to sleep up on them couches
And many of the nights I must admit I wanted out
The niggas closest to me saw me starving in the drought
But they still made it rain and I was dry
I had to figure out who was really who
And what was really what
Cause when your brother fall you supposed to pick your brother up
That's how the wheel was raised
So tell me yo what's up
Cause my love is for the real
But if you ain't you getting cut
I had to get it on my own
I f*cked it up
I gotta get it back
Find another plug
Check the numbers back to flipping packs
My life is like a never ending series of the same shit
I still load it with the same clip
My life is like a novel I read
Stories fed with love and hatred
Why my eyes stay red
Not because of the tears
But because of the wears
I had to face all my fears
And put my shifter in gear
Years of struggle with fools
Got me kicked out of schools
College life had me feeling educated
I got cocky then I never even graduated
I never even graduated