I Don't Know Video (MV)

California, born and raised
Had it easy most of my days
Till I was eleven and in the fifth grade
Since then I haven't been the same
See I have a brother that I don't see
He hasn't been home since 2017
The last time I saw him he stole from me
And I forgave him, but it pained me
And I don't know how I feel about my life right now
I don't know how I feel about my life
I don't know how I feel about my life right now
I'm just trying to figure it out
Back in high school, I fell in love
With a girl and messed things up
With the friends I needed most
Now to them, I'm just a ghost
See I put my time into a group of three
But they didn't put their time into me
Now we don't speak and I'm alone
Wishing someone would call my phone
And I don't know how I feel about my life right now
I don't know how I feel about my life
I don't know how I feel about my life right now
I'm just trying to figure it out
Now my Dad's in Kansas but the family's here
Mom says it's only gonna be for a year
And though we don't speak much anymore
I still miss him and love him more
And I don't know how I feel about my life right now
I don't know how I feel about my life
I don't know how I feel about my life right now
I'm just trying to figure it out
Though I've had many things in life go astray
Many things I will never say
I know God's with me every day
And in the end, it'll be okay
And I don't know how I feel about my life right now
I don't know how I feel about my life
I don't know how I feel about my life right now
I'm just trying to figure it out