Bless - Eternal Lyrics

I could not find any kind of hope
I wasn't aware of my dying soul
My mind was busy running circles
Feeling like I'm leaking, why am I so cold?
Couldn't feel a touch cause I'm also numb
I wonder will this last eternal?
Key in the knob of the front door
Heaviness in my wrist to twist
Step in the house floor
Soaked from the rain
And my feet rubbed the grain
Of the socks that I wore
While the front pressed making it soar
Cold in the cloths that I'm clothed since the morn
Chose to be soaked with the stress of her chord
Her tone will progress if I don't take control
Cause she think this a game but I pull out the chord
No contemplation for statements
I made in my brain and it's basement
Where Charlotte left cobwebs on the cement floor
The choice was concrete
But it never calmed me
As I walked in I called her
Knocking at the front door
Voicemail was left as a package
In it is a message saying
I'm packing blunt force
With the nose that I'm noggin
Like collage I'm in gun course
Pinocchio stretching out like a silencer
I could not find any kind of hope
I wasn't aware of my dying soul
My mind was was busy running circles
Feeling like I'm leaking, why am I so cold?
Couldn't feel a touch cause I'm also numb
I wonder will this last eternal?
Eternal
In my room calling you
In the mood to commit su
So I side with her side
Thought it's true
On my bed, thinking mind
Should I hang on a noose
Or let the bullet thru?
Cause I believed all her lies
That streamed in my mind
Like a stream from a binge or the Nile
Seamed like the best saga to cruise
Paddle and canoe to the end of my life
Bleeding out to the Red Sea
Now that's a cruise
Six round, choosing one
Spinning round cock the gun
Any one could be done
See her soon, trigger fun
Thinking I could've won
This fight one on one
But the lies told me them
While the truth showed me none
Cause I lose at the end
Thinking you was a friend
No excuse for abuse
You accused my defense
And refuse and pretend
That the bruise wasn't meant
But the blue had the clues
Leaking mind cause I'm dead
Resurrection in the midst of death
That's a perfect exit
No more connections with her contacts contexts
I'm not interested
Sindy I'm invested in the Lord and message
I will message
To the world cause flesh gives directions to death
Not to Heaven
I could not find any kind of hope
I wasn't aware of my dying soul
My mind was busy running circles
Feeling like I'm leaking, why am I so cold?
Couldn't feel a touch cause I'm also numb
I wonder will this last eternal?
Eternal