Forever killing me
Choking on my own words
Hoping that I end up dead
Ink hits the paper
But there's nothing that hasn't been said
I try to tell myself
That what I'm feeling is alright
I invalidate that:
Suffering is daily life
Forever
And ever
These thoughts won't leave my mind
Forever
And ever
I'm f*cking telling you it's
Killing me
(Inside and I don't reach out)
Sever me
(From this cloud of self loathing)
Can't spill the vomit inside
Can't stop telling myself lies
The world f*cking drains my will to be alive
Rat Jesu:
It's been killing me
A feeling of inadequacy
A shattered disappointment
Wrapped in rags of uncertainty
I push my head under the water so that I can feel clean
But the blood has stained my soul, I can never be free
I can never be free
BLIND EQUATION
I can never be free
Rat Jesu:
Abandoned on the pavement
Bleeding out, I'm fading away
I ask if this is the end
But this is everyday
BLIND EQUATION
Burden to my loved ones
I can never f*cking fall asleep
Headed for disaster
No one ever hears me f*cking scream
Rat Jesu:
Suffocating
So frustrating
Wish that I could end it all
I'm just fading
Depreciating
Nail myself onto a cross
Try again,
Again again
But I don't feel a change at all
Try and fail
And fall, and spiral
Nothing left, can't take it all
BLIND EQUATION
Forever and ever
They eat my soul away
Forever and ever
They f*cking kill me
Killing me, sever me
Can't spill the vomit inside, can't spill the vomit inside
Can't spill
F*ck