Blood Red - Alone Lyrics

Don't think that I can cope
I can't trust a sole
Told em how I fell and then they left me in the cold
Hanging from a rope
I ain't really lone
I'm surrounded by the demons and the voices in my dome
People think I'm living large but this a broken home
Only things that get me through is homie and my girl
I'm sipping on the lean
Drowning out the hate
You don't know a thing about me
Yea f*ck you and what you think

Just to spite em all imma push to be okay
I ain't gonna let you tell me who I'm supposed to be
Cuts on my wrist adding up to 13
I'm tryna push through but it's harder than you think
Ain't nobody honest ain't nothing what it seems
Mix it with some drugs and now I'm flying through the tears

My parents don't want me
I'm in this by myself
I got a girl but I'm scared she'll leave for someone else
Don't wanna go outside
Lately I just wanna die
Feel so isolated but I can't let myself cry
Hold it all in
Never let em see
Just take it out on yourself and hide it under your sleeve
I know this ain't the way but it's the only one I see
Jaded I can't focus yea I'm done tryna believe

I'm tired of going through everyday
Tellin all my fake friends it'll be okay
But they're not the only ones that needa be saved
So I guess I'll just keep on drinking till my problems fade away
I been feeling like this for too damn long
I never really been sure where exactly I belong
Don't know if I can cope but I'll keep on writing songs
Hoping one day I'll be happy and strong