BlueSlayer - A Self To Self With Melatonin Lyrics

Self-hatred
I've seen it time and time again
You hated the laughs
You hated the jokes
You hated not knowing where you belong
So you made a mask
But that mask started to laugh
That mask made jokes
That mask started hanging around the one group you wanted to stay away from
I think you need a self-reflection man
I think you need to take a long rest
Don't wanna speak with you niggas
Don't wanna eat with you niggas
A motherf*cker wanna sleep
The melatonin I seek
I wanna sleep for a week
On God I won't make a peap
Swear to God that I know how it all normally goes
But I want you to know
Eternal sleep doesn't sound that lonely no more
I don't give a f*ck about your comments
I'm drinking bottles of pain
Popping a melatonin I'm trying to end your game
God you claim you love me but gave me two different names
When Blue said he was toxic I told him that I'm the same
I ain't too different
Wanna be somebody that's pimping
But I don't wanna make momma cry and father gets distant
I'm pessimistic I don't even have any future gains
I gotta uptrending ain't shit attached to my name
I'm the lowest of low
Driving home taking showers and turn on the water flow
Eating up pizza dough
Sorry father but taking your mantle's too much to handle
I'm stocking day and night going home and changing the channels
Compared to Kamie in skills and talent can't hold a candle
Won't make it out and I know to Bug I'm not an example
Life really just ain't easy as looking and taking samples
Instead of being honest I cheat and get caught in scandals
Jayden this ain't like you we were in this together
If Marter had seen you now then that nigga would wanna fight you
I don't give a f*ck what type of name you try to throw in
Back to your cage Blue
Let me rest in peace and f*cking pop a melatonin
Let me
Let me
Pop a melatonin
Don't wanna speak with you niggas
Don't wanna eat with you niggas
A motherf*cker wanna sleep
The melatonin I seek
I wanna sleep for a week
On God I won't make a peap
Swear to God that I know how it all normally goes
But I want you to know
Eternal sleep doesn't sound that lonely no more
Don't wanna speak with you niggas
Don't wanna eat with you niggas
A motherf*cker wanna sleep
The melatonin I seek
I wanna sleep for a week
On God I won't make a peap
Swear to God that I know how it all normally goes
But I want you to know
Eternal sleep doesn't sound that lonely no more
It's Blue nigga
I don't get it
I don't get it
Was doing great as a mask
So why's he seeking redemption
I thought it's Blue nigga
Guess Blue is only myself
Amount of times he tried try to kill us
I'm always feeling the tension
I don't know why you would bother to name me
I got you to your prime I put your ass in a safety
You claim that I'm the demon turn your back now you hate me
I got you on your feelings so your plan was to bait me
Debate me on that
Said I had your f*cking back and you can take me on that
You ain't have my f*cking back you took my mentals
Shut the f*ck when I'm talking to you
See here's my issue
Here's my motherf*cking problem with you
You're too soft
I ain't soft cause I ain't dealing with you
You the source to all my obstacles
Tried to mow them down and then you told me it ain't possible
I got perceived in such a bad way
You're the f*cking reason I had all them f*cking bad days
I f*cking made us from the ground up
Junior year you couldn't make some friends
I had to style up
Gigi noticed you had all these niggas start to pile up
I made yo ass some friends and then you tell me that my time's up
Yes bitch
Eric made that list that shit was f*cked up
Yes nigga laughed at Theo's pain
That shit was f*cked up
When you laughed when you was told that Quez got jumped
You know that's f*cked up
You made fun of Zoey's weight every day
Nigga shut the f*ck up yeah I did that
Imma asshole the way you made me
You're the one that even said that God can't even save me
And I've been thinking lately
I'm put all this f*cking work I think that you should praise me
I ain't praising shit you ever did hoe
Need to die you need to pay for all your sins hoe
Don't forget your junior year is when my ass became your clone
You beat your sis before that so you got some sins of your own
Matter fact you said you like the small and the weak
You beat Bug back when that nigga was smaller than me
Aubrey was your f*cking third victim
She was eight years old and now you want to claim that you went and learned wisdom
And you won't apologize
You is just a beater in Miss Randy's and a bitch in Boston's eyes
Women beater yeah I ain't surprised
Just drop and die I'll take control I'll let you meet your goddamn demise
You're right I got some sins of my own
So when you call I'll never pick up the phone
No I'm not worthy yet
I'm sorry yeah I got some sins of my own
I'm trying to die I'm not gonna pick up the phone
I'll pop a melatonin