BluThePoet - Soul Ties Lyrics

Nobody ever told me loving you would come with soul ties
And these aren't the happy kind
I'm talking tossing and rolling over out my sleep

And crying so much my face turns red as beets
And I look for beats to songs and songs to express what I could never seem to say to you all along

Yet plays in the background and I can only
Think of how I'd replace the word God with your name
Because truth be told , I've been feeling low
But I always put you first

Ignoring all your dirt
And eventually it piled up
And it was a insurmountable amount of hurt

Got me feeling like I hopped in a hearse
Willingly

And somehow I still knew we'd end up here some day
Me being the bad guy and you being the one that "got away"

Like I ain't been loyal for years and tell you what I wanted from jump
I guess when they wrote the rules to always express your intentions

They forgot to warn me about girls like you
You know the ones that never want to give a title

But think they own rights to your body
Sleepovers everyday at your place
Because there's just don't feel like home

And you start to brush off appointments in your day
Just to convenience them and keep a smile on they face

I'm such a disgrace

For letting you weave me in with fickle lies
And feed my spirit with sex to past the time
Small talk given but never stimulated my mind
And I still found myself calling you daddy half the time

It was like you were master and I was slave
Call me whipped and I'm talking both ways
Because she had put her hands on me before

Picked up things and threw them
Clenched fist , heavy hits
Bruised arms, when all I wanted was soft kisses

See I just want to know what that soft life era is like
Because I'm tired of being the lover girl with a bruised heart and mind

I wanted to be everything good in her life and instead she got me Caught up in these damn

Soul Ties