Blvck Spider - Pain (feat. Durand The Rapper) Lyrics

So much pain
I pray yea i pray
So i can have a better day
Cuz im not doing okay
Yea

So much pain feels like ima suffocate
My breaths fading away
I pray so i can have a better day
Im really not okay
Why's it hard for me to concentrate
Ever single day im thinking bout my own Mistakes
Im running out in the rain cuz I'm feeling Drained
I lost faith i wasn't proud cuz all i did was Complain

So when you wake up with alot of regret
Throughout the day you try to do your best to Not feel upset
Like your last break up that you can't forget
You be having flash backs and anxiety attacks When you go to bed
I fell in a trap this is why i haven't slept
But i wont collapse cuz this the only path that I've kept
I've been sad cuz it feels like im the biggest Threat
To everybody's heart soul and mindset

I wish i can fly away
You dont see the pain in me everyday
You don't understand what im tryna say, im Tryna say
I got so many problems on my plate
All you ever see is a smile on my face
I don't ever show it, I bottle my rage inside of My cage

Yea I've been going through anxiety
I probably gotta cut off lot of people i don't Need
Like all this toxic air inside my lungs that i Won't breathe
Yea honestly my problems keep on bottling
Inside of me

Yea now they got me talkin bout psychology
And if you wasn't there for me
I wont be there to respond to your apologies
Me and you ain't got the same precise equality
Ima be ahead to succeed at a high velocity

Its the pain that can take away
Your breath today and make you go insane
I got alot on my plate this is why im awake
Holding so much weight yea my body aches
Dont lose yourself or your heart or faith
I just wana escape all of my mistakes
But i gotta change for my own sake
So don't be afraid cuz everything's gonna be ok

I got so many problems i don't know how to Start
Too much is goin on in my brain my mind is Dark
I feel like layin in bed all day i can't find the Heart
When you ain't got nothin to look forward to Its kinda hard

My mind state moves how it chooses
Anxiety and all these panic attacks be so Ruthless
Makin me feel like im useless my soul has Bruises
Im really hurtin hope you don't think im makin Excuses

Chest pains, sweaty palms and weak legs
All these doctors keep tell me that i need meds
I never listen to what he or she says
Told em i ain't takin em i just want a clean head

I don't wanna go through life walkin round like a zombie
Slurred words people thinkin im speakin in Gondi
Supposed to be the KING but im feeling like Bronny
Wish i could take the pain away from drinkin Dasani

I got so many issues i don't know what to do
So hard to cope with everything that im goin Through
This life is gettin to me i really want somethin New
I feel like ima lose it if somethin dont happen Soon

So many demons talkin to me when im at home
They dont listen to me i tell em leave me alone
Talkin to God does he hear me dont even know
Lord if you hear me when i die protect my soul

I wish i can fly away
You dont see the pain in me everyday
You don't understand what im tryna say, im Tryna say
I got so many problems on my plate
All you ever see is a smile on my face
I don't ever show it, I bottle my rage inside of My cage