Crescent Moon Video (MV)

I got stuck in my head
Pretending that you're not dead
It's easy when you're
Four thousand miles from it all
Had my head in the sand
Living in a wonderland
When it happened I remember
I even gave your phone a call
Just hoping you'd pick up
And the madness would all stop
It was stupid but looking back
It was just my way
Of building a defensive wall
Cause I don't deal with trauma well
On top of issues with my mental health
Things like that just shut me down
Like I'm in a dream
If I don't push it away.
That's what I did believing everything was just fine
I'm a decade older than my big brother
And that hurts so much
I wish I'd dealt with it at the time
Such waste of life who knows what you might've become
If only the doctor had stayed with you
Till the ambulance came
You might've not died so young
I'm standing in the rain
I'll just absorb all the pain
With my wife and kid by my side
It doesn't go away but it gets easier to take the sting
As time has passed us by
Revealing the potential of my life
I just wish you could've reached yours
Why did you have to die
Why'd you have to go so soon
You shone a crescent moon
You should've been here
To make it fully shine
When new family was born
And when our dad passed on
You should've been here
To say hello and goodbye
Why'd you have to die
Why'd you have to die
Why'd you have to die
Why'd you have to die