Boaty Blanco - Pain Is Art (feat. Kwesi Appiah) Lyrics

All alone in my room
Mixed up on the 5th cup
And dope all in my spoon
And I don't want to hear shit from you
Cause this music paying off soon
I swear to god I done been through it
I'll die to make it come true
On god I'm better all blue
And music like my only friend since frank passed
Took 8 drags of this cigarette
Threw up until the hate passed
I just skate passed on an E pill
We all evil
I just bring out what they don't claim
I got no hate
Cobain watch me blow up like a dope vein
Got so much pain that I wish I got rid of
Two shots in and all I got is f*cking hiccups
Dead cause I could really never thrive or live up
Expectations they wish I would play the victim
But I can't do that got too much on my mind for all that nonsense
I got high while they was dead and that's still on my conscience
Music like the only thing I love I'm never stopping
Do this till I'm dead in my grave in my coffin
And that's on god and them
Going down this road Alone
I done lost myself
Watched my soul grow cold
Looking for escapes
Off this broken road
Tell me how much longer
Till my life unfolds
Remembering them days
When I had my bros
Why you have to leave
Man it's been So long
Want to grow my wings
Just to speak once more
But I know
I Gotta just keep on fighting on
All alone well I thought I was my conscience never leaves
Thought I'd f*cking make it on the day that I dropped Breeze
Thought I would of died by now some how I'm still alive
Watched my best friend overdose , I was numb I didn't cry
I didn't shed a tear , I took his dope and f*cking ran
I dialed 911 , told them that I found a man
And he was blue he looked so out of it
I lied and said I didn't know him
I think he's dead he might be dead sir , damn I f*cking know it
That was it he died , and overdose at 18 years old
His family f*cking devastated , and I didn't tell a soul
About that day until right now , kept it bottled up 5 years
I didn't even attend his funeral cause I was shook and still in fear about what might have happened
Going down this road Alone
I done lost myself
Watched my soul grow cold
Looking for escapes
Off this broken road
Tell me how much longer
Till my life unfolds
Remembering them days
When I had my bros
Why you have to leave
Man it's been so long
Want to grow my wings
Just to speak once more
But I know
I got to just keep on fighting on