Boomland - Heavy Feeling Lyrics

Sleeping only brings on the dreams
They cover everything I know with those dirty awful rotten things
Keep away from the windows darling
I don't know who but they're watching
It feels like I'm being crawled on, I might be losing my cool
A jagged and rusted blade
Inserted and twisted right between my fourth and fifth rib
Cover up with the nicest clothes in the pile
Bet I look just fine to you, always force a laugh and fake a smile
I've been ice cold, bleeding from the gums, numbed out
Drinking just to cover up the taste in my mouth
Took a hit of bass now the nights headed south
But I'm past that now
You call it sober but I'm oh so painfully aware
Of everything around this heavy feeling isn't fair
It's like an entourage I've got to drag around and foot the bill and take the pills
Push uphill f*ck
I don't feel better just numb
But I can't give up because somehow I'm scared to die
So a mother f*cker keep trying

There's this heavy feeling I've been breaking apart
There's this heavy feeling I've been breaking apart, yeah

There's this heavy feeling that I've been breaking apart
Should've known better, should've known
Something was wrong from the start
Been self medicating with the psychos
Painting on my wall make it spin like a cyclone
King of my own land I was beheaded and dethroned
Living in a dream but this surely can't be functional
Where the weed at
Ran out of friends that'll pass off the free bag
Can't make money with no job to be at
Eating out the trash was a one time deal yeah
I've been thinking bout so cal
At least the weathers nice
Friends will fill my pipe and if it rains it's just a shower and a warm night
Seriously I don't know what I'm going to do
Think about offin' myself whenever rent's due
I would say you could walk a mile in these shoes
But they barely fit my feet and I doubt that they would fit you

There's this heavy feeling I've been breaking apart
There's this heavy feeling I've been breaking apart yeah