Boys Of Fall - Not Who I Used to Be Lyrics

Here's where the conversation ends, too scared to let it all go
Downstairs to your Sister's basement where you said its over

I tried to see the best of us, you cried a thousand tears
No stars in the night sky, no shine in the sunrise

And it's getting pretty lonely baby
Something ain't hitting right

Am I not who I used to be?
Am I not who I used to be?
And its gonna take more to save me
Can I get a little more fight?
Maybe were not who we used to be

So tell me, is it never ending?
I cant keep my head straight and its all too heavy
I'm spiraling so fast I think I might be sick
Never had much to work with, keeping my head above the surface

I cried, I can tell my self I tried
But you'll stay inside my head for a while
Let me drown here in my own denial
Am I not who I used to be?
Am I not who I used to be?

I'm vain, I can tell myself I'm fine
I can leave with just a little trace
Will that make it all okay? (Am I not who I used to be?)

So tell me, is it never ending?
I cant keep my head straight and its all too heavy
I'm spiraling so fast I think I might be sick
Never had much to work with, keeping my head above the surface

And I can stay and mix the reasons you and I won't last the season
Though you're fake it's sinking in, it's never who I thought we would be
So keep my head above the surface, conversations losing purpose
Maybe were not who we used to be, maybe its not who we are now (I cried)

I can tell my self I tried, but you'll stay inside my head for a while
Let me drown here in my own denial
Am I not who I used to be? Am I not who I used to be?

There in pieces baby, but I can feel lately
That the air is changing and I'm seeing now
Feel the hole inside my chest
Always play at second best, next to him
Yeah it's the end, maybe I'm not who I used to be

So tell me, is it never ending?
I cant keep my head straight and its all too heavy
I'm spiraling so fast I think I might be sick
Never had much to work with, keeping my head above the surface

So tell me, is it never ending?
I cant keep my head straight And its all too heavy
I'm spiraling so fast I think I might be sick