Brandon Jenkins - Painted on Smile Lyrics

I'm tryin' real hard to pretend I'm still listenin'
But I'm in a whole nother world if the truth be known
'Cause I can barely follow your conversation
It's like the words to a song I don't know
And I'm just humming alone

I'm sick and tired of this worn out disguise
I'm staring out from behind these eyes
My hearts been strewn over every mile
And I'm just here with a painted on smile

Everybody's been worried about my drinkin'
They say the look in my eyes have changed now
I'm not the guy they've known
They don't know just how my world's been sinkin'
I'm doin' the best I can to hold on
So just leave me alone

It's hard enough tryin' to life out a lie
I just want to go out and get high
I'm knowin' things that should never be known
And I just want to go out and get stoned

Everybody keeps askin' the same old questions
Where you goin'? Where you been?
It's all the same to me
I'm just tryin' real hard to make a connection
And try to make some sense of it all
All the insanity

I'm sick and tired of this worn out disguise
I'm staring out from behind these eyes
My hearts been strewn over every mile
And I'm just here with a painted on smile

I'm tryin' real hard to pretend I'm still listening
But I'm in a whole nother world if the truth be known
'Cause I can barely follow your conversation
It's like the words to a song I don't know
And I'm just humming along

I'm sick and tired of living a lie
And I just want to go out and get high
I wish to God that I never had known
I just want to go out and get stoned