Brandon Nivens - Pray for You Lyrics

Man you was supposed to live forever
Now I can't talk to you not never
2 years since we lost you
And it ain't never gon get better
You're mother lost her first born son
Your brother lost a brother that he truly loved
Your death hit me like a ton of bricks
Truly I haven't been the same since
I never understood that death was real
Until it happens close to home and you really feel
What it's like to lose someone you knew for so long
Homie you committed we had no clue that something was wrong
Every single day you was battling demons of your own
Couldn't cut the weeds inside of your soul that overgrown
You should've never felt like you was in this life all on your own
I just pray that in that in the after life you finally found home
I just pray that you found eternal happiness somewhere
Screaming up to god I can't help looking dumb here
On earth where you should still be standing
I swear you're in my ear right now
Saying "thank you brandon"
Keep my legacy alive
Keep me going through your eyes
Keep on pushing forward when your dreams everyone else denies
I hate you didn't ask for help
You went a put up a disguise
I can't even count how many tears for you that I have cried
No one ever thought you'd be the type to take your own life
I couldn't even understand it when I got the news that night
What would make you wanna take your own life at 17
Every single day I pray I wakeup from this bad dream
But when I go to sleep and wakeup you're still gone
Got your date tatted on my heart
Watch over me with god

Everyday I pray for you
You may be gone but I feel you I do
You fixed all our problems you made us all laugh
You couldn't fix yours and homie that's sad

See I ain't know that things are changing around me
I changed too cause I can't accept the boundaries
You left me and now I feel like I'm drowning
Still waiting for the moment that you tell me your clowning
The sun don't shine anymore
Everyday is cloudy
Tried for last year
But I cannot make sense of it
Maybe I'd be fine if I wasn't so sensitive
Or maybe losing someone takes a toll on your senses man
You were silently screaming
But nobody was listening
In a race with the devil guess he handled his businesses
Let's give it 10 more years but I don't know if I'll get it then
You were so young and now you'll never see the best of life
All because the toughest years got to you this isn't right
I used to lay in bed and cry myself to sleep like every night
Now I just scream inside a dark room into the mic
I guess I'll never be able to understand
How a man so strong no longer wanted to stand
Why wasn't I there when you needed a helping hand
Told myself you was fine and nothing I do can change it
Now I think about it every day and I get anxious
Find myself walking my room
But in my head the thoughts are pacing
The ball was in your court but you picked it up and passed it
I'll see you again maybe one day and that's my last wish
People saying let it go why you thinking on this past shit
You wouldn't let it go if your homie went and crashed ship
The last thing you remember was dapping him up and laughing
Now all I got left are the memories from before
Sitting staring at these pictures of you all over my floor
And I ain't see nothing but the smile on your face
Crazy how one decision could slowly make all that change