Why? Video (MV)

I wanna write out my feelings but idk what to say
Cause rly it's nothing more than I'm having a shitty day
I wanna put it in words and trust me I'm trying
But before I can get it out I just end up crying
I know what to say when I'm asked how I feel
But when I'm asked why, no answer feels real
I can't squeal, can't make a structure using Peel
I know how I feel but I don't know why
Which makes every day just not feel right
It's not as bad as her, cry chocolate for the hurt
No breakup to boast, or issues to roast
But I feel, and I can't heal
Why?
Why do I feel
Why do I feel like nothings real
How do I heal
Why?
I can't mend a relationship, or take a vacation, shit
I'm stuck in this cycle, and the only thing I know, is surviving is vital
I can't get out, if i wanted to
Only way to escape, is through an escape route
Cause i'm on auto pilot
And there's no button to fly it
Keep, keeping on
'Til everythings gone
And your empty shell
Unlocks the spell
I'm lost in a maze with no escape
And no idea how i got in the place
I'm like flowers in a vase
Taken from the base
With only water
Helping the slaughter
Looking pretty in a case
But just in case i can get better
Lord, keep making me wetter
Why?
Why do I feel
Why do I feel like nothings real
How do I heal
Why?