Bridgette Starr - July 6 Lyrics

He says, "Who wouldn't like you?"
I say I can name one or two
He's acting like I deserve being cared for
Even when he wants to, I feel like I owe him
He says "stop saying sorry"
Am I convincing myself I don't like you?
Am I actually terrified of this all going wrong?
I've got so much trauma feels like I'll never surface
Are you the one to dive in and hold me in your arms?
Lying to myself that he's not worth it
Gets kinda hard when he's perfect
Fighting to ignore the way he treats me
I've been stuck too long
Believing that I'm better off alone
Am I convincing myself I don't like you?
Am I actually terrified of this all going wrong?
I've got so much trauma feels like I'll never surface
Are you the one to dive in and hold me in your arms?
(Should've said yes on July 6)
(Why'd I say no on July 6)
What was I thinking on...
July 6 walk next to him real close (Should've said yes on)
July 6 just the two of us alone (Why'd I say no on July 6)
July 6 pitch black his white shirt
July 6 laughed while he hid his hurt
July 5 I'm better off alone (What was I thinking on)
July 5 I don't deserve him at all
But July 6 realize I made the wrong call
July 6 cried on the drive home
Am I convincing myself I don't like you?
Am I actually terrified of this all going wrong?
I've got so much trauma feels like I'll never surface
Are you the one to dive in and hold me in your arms?