bright blind... - Is This It? Lyrics

There was this girl I used to know, we haven't talked in quite some time
She told me she liked the things I liked, I never made my shot
Now I'm lost and without a home
Her name was what inspired me to write this song

We used to talk all the time, I thought she was destined for me in my head at the time
I'm all alone in this world, I don't know a single soul
It's been a while since I met someone brand new
I miss all of my friends, she was one of them

I've met her in a place so close to my soul
Now she's with the one she wanted all along
And I'm stuck pining after all the ones I thought would be there till the very end
I haven't found a single trace of bones into this unknown

I took my time till I knew it was very right
Now that I know all hope is gone, I can't find another soul
I'm walking down the circle we call life, trying to stay up all night once again
All my life I knew there was a challenge waiting there for me

I'm gonna stop betting against the world
I wish you were by my side all the time
My life just doesn't feel the same without you
Just doesn't feel the same without you in my heart

Is this it? Will we never meet again
Am I too in my head
Lord knows I'll never fit in again
They took my girl, they took my world

Wish I could make this pain go away
Reflecting on everything that used to belong to me
I no longer feel free
Where have I been but in my head again

Looks like this is it again
I see the world pass me by and I can't stop again
There's nothing left but love that I no longer wanna share with anyone else again
Is this it? I have no family or friends

I'm giving up again
I'll never kiss your lips again
I'll remember your scent when I'm dead
If only I could turn back time then this would have never happened instead

Up all night again
Having dark thoughts again
Don't know what to do

Don't know who to trust
Not even you
I don't feel safe anymore
My thoughts are all I've got

I need to pack my bags to get away
Somewhere far away from here
Days go by all alone once again
Up all night, been up for days

Having the same thoughts going through my head all the time
Doesn't matter how much I think I'm gonna live on
My shape doesn't matter how I live my life
Don't matter how I wanna live long enough to become a legend

If my dream is the way I wanna live on
I'd love to see every part of this earth that I've been longing for
For you to be with my love and die with me
After all, my true wishes are fulfilled and settled down

I've never felt when time has passed
Last night you came as a picture buried deep inside my mind that felt so real
I woke up with a smile upon my face
Then I remembered it's all a lie

How you trapped inside my head
As I sit here in my misery
I've been stuck all day thinking of you
And here I am

I've been trapped inside my head
I've been thinking of you
And hearing heartache songs every time I think of you

I ask myself are you the one
And should I crawl back to you
Or should I carry on without you in my life
I miss you too much

I'm feeling alone
I hope I won't forget you anytime soon
Can we just leave it all behind
Forget about what we were in the past

Life is what you said
On the subject of your pain
Everything has changed
I realize what I've made

If I can take it away
It would bring me such shame
Just know I'm not the one to blame
I sensed your pain

It didn't turn me away
Don't be fooled by the name
I've been doing okay
To get out of town

I've met someone I really like
Just kind of afraid to fall in love again
Pain is what I can't take
Part of me wished things stay the same

But most of me is glad I'm still sane
Nobody else is to blame
Just wish everything you touched was concrete made
I forgive in the end

But though things aren't gonna change
So don't be fooled by the name
I had a dream like you
Once glad life is going this way

If this is it
My life will never change
I never stood a single chance
Ever since my life began

Losing everything I ever touched
I'm giving up again
I'll smile when it's my end
Always crawling in my own skin

Forgetting the meaning of it all again
So many special people change
I can't face this life of pain again
If this is it

I'm saying it's my end
The stars are shining in my sky
What a lovely way to end
Not a single soul in sight

But the skies feel so alive
I can see a light shining above
Heaven is in my eyes
I finally see the light

Goodbye
Goodbye
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Goodbye

Goodbye
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Goodbye
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Goodbye
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Goodbye