Happy New Year Video (MV)

Here I go again
Logging in
On my desktop, after I deleted it
Reading tweets and your likes that highlight our life
I get that feeling in my chest, and then my stomach starts to twist
How can I forgive myself if I keep holding on like this
I know what I did
Played the witch
But I'm working on repenting
For my sins, I admit, I have lost myself
I'm working out all the dreadful things I said
Behind your back, I blame my head
Wish I could take back all of these regrets
Now you're someone I have to live without
A lesson I should've learned by now
But I'm learning the hard way once again
I've been talking to the man upstairs
Asking Him if you still care
Cause your silence makes me unaware
What a happy new year
I've been told to let you go
But that feels like a joke
How can I leave all I know about you 10 years of memories I can't undo
Words in my head again threatening me so they aren't unsaid
But I don't want to push you further
So I'll stay right here in my bed
Now you're someone I have to live without
A lesson I should've learned by now
But I'm learning the hard way once again
I've been talking to the man upstairs
Asking Him if you still care
Cause your silence makes me unaware
What a happy new year
Looking at old photographs, what we used to be
Trying to mend the pieces of the past ever haunting me
In the silence, I am calling, hoping that you'll hear my plea
But I'm letting go; now you're free from me
Counting down from 10
Thoughts begin
It's almost midnight, and the ball will drop again
Newly married should be happy, but no one thought to tell me
Friendship breakups are the worst
A part of my heart forever cursed
The countdown's like our years together
Reversing what we had to the first
Now you're someone I have to live without
A lesson I should've learned by now
But I'm learning the hard way once again
I've been talking to the man upstairs
Asking Him if you still care
Cause your silence makes me unaware
What a happy new year
What a happy new year
What a happy new year