Every time you touch me I keep on pretending that I feel something
Guess I should've known that when I keep it hidden we can never win
Swear that I'll be honest, but I'm never honest when you call my name
I'm afraid to love you if I have to tell you that it's not the same
I don't wanna please you cause I only hurt myself
I don't wanna need you cause I know it never helps
I deserve to be selfish, I deserve to be first
Saying shit cause I mean it, saying nothing is worse
Cnd I'd rather be difficult
Then telling you how it's my fault
I deserve to be selfish, I deserve to be first
Yeah I deserve to be selfish
Every time I see you I just wanna leave you if that means I'm free
Free to be alone where no one really knows me, where I can just breathe
Done with all the hiding, done with all the lying, making me insane
Know that I should let go, even if it means tho you're not gonna stay
I don't wanna please you cause I only hurt myself
I don't wanna need you cause I know it never helps
I deserve to be selfish, I deserve to be first
Saying shit cause I mean it, saying nothing is worse
Cnd I'd rather be difficult
Then telling you how it's my fault
I deserve to be selfish, I deserve to be first
Yeah I deserve to be selfish
I don't wanna please you cause I only hurt myself
I don't wanna need you cause I know it never helps
I deserve to be selfish, I deserve to be first
Saying shit cause I mean it, saying nothing is worse
Cnd I'd rather be difficult
Then telling you how it's my fault
I deserve to be selfish, I deserve to be first
Yeah I deserve to be selfish
I deserve to be, I deserve to be selfish
I deserve to be
Yeah I deserve to be selfish