Brucce - So Many Scars Lyrics

I've been left with marks of pain now it's a shame I can't trust anybody
I've went through torture in my brain it's jus replays I barely feel my body
Stabbed in the back by everyone that I've let beside me
Been let down by anyone I've met besides me
Recycling rumination
It's death in my eyes I fail ta keep it hidden
[Trippin]
My teas from texas
[Lipton]
I cope with what I'm hinting
Colors mixing
Hollon
Momma say I'm throwing life away somehow she still ain't see the vision
But then again she do need glasses
Ma I'm out here spanking asses
Always knew I'm meant fa greatness I never could sit still in classes
It's nothing new I been the greatest now it's no more giving passes
This jus another trauma dump y'all heard it before so let's do it again
I've already rapped about coming up hard and then still made it far without making a friend
But there's so many scars and a part of me screamin to let someone in
I look out all I see is noir so ta cope I mix soda with some medicine
Deuces in doses but was never sick
I done came a long way from all that bogus shit
I done came in a long way from holding onto flicks
But I'll still load a clip the move was know ta blitz
2 months onna rock no evidence would stick
My prints in 2 systems but my record clean
It's deucce wayne the sleuth it ain't no holding me
I jus used that time for planning and to think
Sat down in my mind to find out why I sink
So much pain I would take know I'm forever scarred
I'm starting to hate how I'm always on guard how
Know ppl are fake but I still wanna bond
Seen niggas turn snake so I dap wit one hand on my arm
I get bit den ah head ah be gone
I been snaked before and it left a big scar
Too many scars
Too many scars
Momma say I'm throwing life away somehow she still ain't see the vision
But then again she do need glasses
Ma I'm out here spanking asses
Always knew I'm meant fa greatness I never could sit still in classes
It's nothing new I been the greatest now it's no more giving passes
This jus another trauma dump y'all heard it before so let's do it again
I've already rapped about coming up hard and then still made it far without making a friend
But there's so many scars and a part of me screamin to let someone in
I look out all I see is noir so ta cope I mix soda with some medicine
I done got older and lifted my chin
I done got bolder cause I gotta win
But now im bipolar my hands gotta stay onna holster protect myself from my old sins
Got colder I needed to lean was no shoulders I started pouring the green in my soda
Had me slumping over
Stayed tired but always was sleep
Pops steady askin what's got into me
Shouldn't ask what's in me you should ask what's left
Swear you cut it open nothings in my chest
Heart is prolly soaking all in colored flesh
Just a purple mess
Just all hurt and stress
Just so many scars
Just so many scars
Momma say I'm throwing life away somehow she still ain't see the vision
But then again she do need glasses
Ma I'm out here spanking asses
Always knew I'm meant fa greatness I never could sit still in classes
It's nothing new I been the greatest now it's no more giving passes
This jus another trauma dump y'all heard it before so let's do it again
I've already rapped about coming up hard and then still made it far without making a friend
But there's so many scars and a part of me screamin to let someone in
I look out all I see is noir so ta cope I mix soda with some medicine