BTEVE - Lullabies Lyrics

This doesn't feel right
I'm staring in the mirror, but I'm not that guy
I know I'll never change, don't know why I try
When you say that you love me, do you lie
Girl, I've been through this all my life
I went left, should've took a right
Now I'm down in hell singing lullabies
The devil tryna dance, but she not my type
But I don't stand a chance, girl
You put me in a trance, got no way to fight
Lately I've been thinking, alone in my head
Thinking about the times I held you in my bed
Most days my thoughts are all filled up with dread
You don't care, I'm bleeding, you leave me on red
Some nights when I feel f*cked up, some nights when I feel scared
I look around my room just to see you right there
You're haunting my life, Girl I think I may die
Please be honest with me when I'm gone will you cry
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
I don't know what's on your mind
All I know is you're on mine, that's for life
Driving fast, can't take it slow
Almost crashed, yeah I might lose control
Ain't got nothing to lose, can't prove nothing to you
Yeah, she was like the girls from the movies
I never really thought that she'd abuse me, or use me
No, I never ever thought that she would choose me
No, no, no, no
They all say you're bad for me, but I don't care cause I'm a lost cause
Yeah, either way girl, I'm a lost cause
It won't matter what I say
I'm going down either way
The maker's calling my phone
He's trying to meet me today
Nah, this doesn't feel right
Staring in the mirror, but I'm not that guy
I know I'll never change, don't know why I try
When you say that you love me do you lie
Girl, I've been through this all my life
I went left, shoulda took a right
Now I'm down in hell singing lullabies
Lullabies, lullabies