Butterscotch - With Grace Lyrics

Never saw the day I would have to say goodbye
To one of my best friends and see your mama cry
I can't believe that you're gone
Can't believe I'm writing this song
Can't believe that I lost you on my birthday (let it breathe)
Every memory with you on replay
Used to talk bout growing old together
Rockin stages music soulmates forever
As far I knew things were going well
Didn't even know you were living in hell
Wish I coulda done more that you would've reached out
Help is the hardest thing to get and try to seek out
But I know I had struggles of my own
Feeling out of body with this flesh on loan
Busiest city yet I'm feeling so alone
It's funny when your worst enemy is your home
We always had kinda parallel lives
I was suicidal too the night that you died
Saw a vision of a tombstone but thought it was mine
Then you showed up in my dreams didn't know it was a sign
You were late to our gig never made it on stage
Mad cause you appeared to be disengaged
Some reason I knew we'd never work again
But when I woke up I didn't know it was because you were dead

How could you leave this way
You know you were supposed to stay
Now I'm finding my way
Letting you go with grace

Every time I listen to that old school hip hop
Tribe called quest, The Roots, Nas or 2Pac
Always thinking of you right as the beat drops
Partner in rhyme synchronized in all thoughts
Taking it back to open mics in Sac
The first time we jammed at a "touch of class"
Never once practiced but we perfectly matched
Reaching new dimensions locked in and latched
From 2006 until forever
We rocked that shit didn't matter wherever
Taiwan, Switzerland, Germany together
Trustin to move with me to Vegas hellish weather
We ran away with the circus, at first a little nervous
But damn you settled in and flourished
Bread Fam to The Lique soul food to nourish
Next act to follow needed more than liquid courage
Long days late nights gettin people hype
Who knew we were two squares introvert type
Maskin up in a club, armor like the dark knight
Bruce Wayne Micheal Cain cinematic spot light
Living in a movie we destined for greatness
Screaming out the car motherf*ckas we made it
Small town kids to Sin City Vegas
Never doubt the duo from Roseville and Davis

How could you leave this way
You know you were supposed to stay
Now I'm finding my way
Letting you go with grace

I know we all gotta go
But you left a little too soon
Wishing for you back each tide of a new moon
Looking at our texts
Trying to live it back in replay
Never knew there'd be a limit on the things I could say
Still talking to ya
Feel your presence everywhere
Chill, laid back with the afro pic in your hair
Family guy re-runs
South Park on a loop
Watching you react to Ye's poopity scoop
Love when you laughed
It would be so infectious
528 healing that solar plexus
After every show
There would always be one clown
Didn't get the message no one wanted him around
Every single time
You used to hit me with the side eye
Reading all your thoughts like "who's this f*cking wise guy"
Shit, I could go on and on like Badu
Smooth operators like Sade Adu

What would I do different
If I had another chance
Knowing this was your curtain call
Final last dance
Would I do the same thing
That I do in every dream
Beg you to stay and tell you we a team
I'd remind you of your words
Every lyric every verb
You inspired all who listened and wanted to learn
You are a prophet you a sage
You have God in your name
RAsar I love you, life will never be the same