BW Johnson - This Hole in My Brain Lyrics

I'd rather be drinking gin and tonic
Than drinking in all this applause
Everyone's clapping, bowing, cheering, then I wake up
Half dead on the floor
There is this hole in my brain

Some have been up all night
Others are half dead too
Some left early that night
Others are in the bedroom
There is this hole in my brain

There's this hole in my brain
A puzzle to figure out? A lonely game?
Trying to find the puzzle piece to kill off all this doubt!
Anxiety! Doubt and bitter cold pain!

I'd rather be sinking into bed
Than swimming through hordes of people
They're grinning, gurning, coughing, and yearning
To find out how to be true
There is this hole in my brain

There's this hole in my brain
A puzzle to figure out?
I'm just content to hate myself! Cold! Bitter! Probably dying!
What am I on about?

Some have been up all night
Others are half dead too
Some left early that night
Others are in the bedroom
I'm all alone, trying to figure out something I just don't know!
There is this hole in my brain

I'd rather be sinking into bed
Than swimming through hordes of people
They're grinning, gurning, coughing, and yearning
To find out how to be true
I've been there before but now I'm on my horse
Bored and alone I ignore my phone and just do whatever it may be
Tryna figure out what is wrong with me
There is this hole in my brain

There is this hole in my brain
No puzzle to figure out, without the piece to figure out the game
Just tryna kill off all this doubt
I'm just content to hate myself! Cold! Bitter! Probably dying!
What am I on about?