Bxloko - Afraid to Die (Who II) [feat. Lil Cjure] Lyrics

Why am afraid to die?
Why am afraid to die?
Cross my fingers, suicide
Suicide
Why am afraid to die?
Why am afraid to die?
Cross my fingers, suicide
I'm tryna run from the handgun
Who is my mum?
I don't want her to become
Another stranger, no income
Compensating damages
Up in my cranium
Who am I?
'Bout to jump
Call me by my alias
Why am I so carefree?
Wondering "Who is he?"
Suffering can't you see
This was never mean to be
Why am I afraid to die?
Cross my fingers, suicide
I was running from a handgun
Tryna have some fun
But instead I played dumb
Now it's back to square one
Contemplating what just happened
Feeling like my soul's abandoned
Cut my wrists and leave me hangin'
This life is just too demandin'
Why was I so carefree?
Wondering "Who was he?"
Suffered, now can't you see
That was never meant to be
Why am I afraid to die?
Cross my fingers, suicide
Fired rounds from a handgun
Piercin' through my lung
I just wanna rewind time
I think I am done
Manifestin' all these feelings
Someone help I need some healin'
I'll be better don't you worry
Leave me now I said I'm sorry
Do you think I'm carefree?
Can you just agree with me?
Suffering can't you see
We we're never meant to be
I think I'm afraid to die
Only way is suicide
Killed a man with a handgun
He was so calm
Baloko chewin' casings
Like he is a no one
Devestatin' damages
Up in his cranium
Who was it
Got him merked
Must've been his alias
Kid was so carefree
Hanging body from a tree
Suffered, now he can flee
To a new reality
Why did he have to die
Cross my fingers I survive
Hold my hand we're gonna die
With the angels 'bout to fly
Self-esteem gettin' low
But the expectations runnin' high
I'm tryna run from the handgun
Who is my mum?
I don't want her to become
Another stranger, no income
Hold my hand we're gonna die
With the angels 'bout to fly
Self-esteem gettin' low
But the expectations runnin' high
I was running from a handgun
Tryna have some fun
But instead I played dumb
Now it's back to square one