C · AYA - phantasm Lyrics

Who's to define reality
The rules to make it fit?
Who's to claim normality
Set boundaries for it?
That one that called me odd
Don't know what he saw
And I don't need it
I don't need it
I know I get obsessed and
Ruin everything
I know I can't let go
Always go back to the beginning
I wish you'd wanna know
Who I really am
Here at 3am
Where is my mind?
Searched everywhere
But it's nowhere to find
You told me more than a hundred times
To keep control of it
Never lose your grip
But I don't need it
I don't need it
Where is my mind?
Searched everywhere
But it's nowhere to find
Oh, you must have told me a thousand times
To keep control of it
Never lose your grip
But I don't need it
I don't need it
I think we're all pretty bizarre
Some of us just are
Way better at hiding it
And who they really are
Take a picture, fake a life
Let no one hear you cry at night
See if you get questions in the morning
Walking in circles
Carves a path so deep
I worry that the day I'm finally done
I won't get out of it
They expect that in the end
We grow up, learn to pretend
We are happy with the life and all
We chose to settle in
Where is my mind?
Searched everywhere
But it's nowhere to find
You told me more than a hundred times
To keep control of it
Never lose your grip
But I don't need it
I don't need it
Where is my mind?
Searched everywhere
But it's nowhere to find
Oh, you must have told me a million times
To keep control of it
Never lose your grip
But I don't need it
I don't need it
No
Oh, I told you a million times
I told you
I told you I don't need it
(At least in my head I said)
I don't need it
I don't need it, no