Cachas - Addiction Has No Color Lyrics

I know I broke your heart the day I started using drugs
I'm sorry that your love for me was never quite enough
I'm sorry that I ran when things were getting tough
But let me clarify this for the ones who feel they need to judge

You ever walked in my shoes? No, so you don't have a clue
Why I used every day until I started to form a habit
Before I knew what happened, I'm suddenly an addict
That just wasted half their life, every dream that they had was shattered

Now you're feeling hopeless, you're feeling broken, you're feeling battered
Cause the dope that you've been chasing is the only thing that mattered
You tried to break the cycle, you tried to break the pattern
But the hole I dug myself was too deep without a ladder

I Wish I could take back, wish I could take away your pain
Wish that I could go get, get, get on track Wish I wasn't so ashamed
Needed to just accept the fact That I'm the only thing to blame
Straightened up my act, so I can make a change

Mama, I'm sorry I let you down I'm sorry you don't understand
Even if I never make it out, I love you to the very end
Just got out the penn, I'm hoping deep inside I'll last longer than the weekend
It's usually the time it takes for me to find a reason

Every bit, every fiber of my being says to play with my demons
So I need something different, something that I believe in
I surrendered and accepted God, I'm defeated But I'm not beaten
No one ever told me it's the secrets I've been keeping

That made me sit alone and isolate I barely speak to people
Cause my heart was full of hurt and hate How could anyone ever relate
No one really cares about me, I should go and hibernate
Somewhere by myself Where I can constantly replay the tape

Of how I messed it up again And now it's probably way too late
I know what the therapist would say I need to open up so that's what I did
And bam, a brand new day I finally got it right
Not before I got it wrong I wish the same for all my friends

But most of them are dead and gone I share openly to raise awareness
On the dangers of addiction when you're young and careless
So before you point the finger Be careful, it could be your family
It could be a stranger

I love you mom You always gonna be there for me
You always gonna be the number one in my life Happy Mother's Day