Cal the Rapper - My World Lyrics

Welcome
To my world
Where everybody makes fun of me because I'm doing what they can't
All they ever seem to do is laugh at me and call me trash
Some days I start to believe them then I end up getting mad
Second guess myself and then convince me that I'm actually bad
Don't know why I f*ckin listen. All it does is make me sad
It became part of the mission to start writin bout the crap
This shit that I'm speakin is real but y'all won't give it a chance
I keep makin it a big deal. With the devil, start to dance
We were so broke, pizza was a luxury
Burn our own throat but we feelin lucky
Growin up hot had the ladies stop They all up in my spot. Actin like a thot
Till one day came and I lost all the fame. Never felt the same after that giveaway
Over time, I lost confidence
Polarized by my self conflict
Holy ties I feel start to slip
Sober eyes till I feel like shit
Where procrastination take over some days
Try to act amazin but I got brain haze
And I lack the patience that will give me fame
Complacent. But I'm tryin to change
What a f*cked up thing the mind can be
Make you trust none then you start to bleed
Life is uncut, everything you see
You get dumb luck, that's a fantasy
This is my world and it feels f*cked up
Always got a twirl in my brain, f*cked up
Goin for the Pearl. Gonna get ton bucks
Kinda wanna hurl these thoughts, upchuck
This is my world and it feels f*cked up
Always got a twirl in my brain, f*cked up
Goin for the Pearl. Gonna get ton bucks
Kinda wanna hurl these thoughts, upchuck
All my life we been f*ckin broke
Got the money and we make it choke
Never had ability to make it grow
Till one day came that we got new hope
Livin everyday full of f*ckin fear
Will the bills get paid or end right here
Think it's time to change. Hide away the tears
Can't stay the same cause I need new gear
All the damn comments telling me I suck
And I'm startin to believe em, wantin to give up
Won't achieve my goals by hidin in the muck
So I try to continue workin for big bucks
This is my world and it feels f*cked up
Always got a twirl in my brain, f*cked up
Goin for the Pearl. Gonna get ton bucks
Kinda wanna hurl these thoughts, upchuck
Man, wouldn't everything be so great, if everything just went our way and nobody had bad shit to say
I bet it would. Doubt we'll see that day
Love is sweet when it's new but sweeter when it's true
Haven't got it in a few years Thought that I did lose. Feel a bit blue. Doesn't have to do with you Sayin it so I can move onto somethin really cool
You will never win if you never begin
Say it to myself so that I can make a wind
Cause I'm f*ckin sick of being locked in
This f*ckin box of a hypocrite
Say my Nike's ain't basketball shoes
Well that's fine, I never cared for you
Quit sayin shit before I let loose this monster inside, hang you from a noose
Goddamn right I'm strange
All you f*ckers should know that I'm insane
Did you hear the songs I made about my brain
I doubt you did cause I didn't get paid
Might be lackin the emotion when I'm stackin up the potion and I'm rappin like I'm focused but emotion wasn't noticed
I was trashin my own ocean cause the sattin caused commotion. I's attackin the right motion to be packin all the dough in
Just don't feel my shits sufficient
Prolly why record deal non-existent
Prolly why I don't see recognition
But I'm workin hard to be proficient
I got downs even on my best days
Cause the thing I wanna do is only workin in my brain
Feel a bit depressed, can't seem to think straight
But it happens so fast like a Superman escape
When those thoughts hit, they last a while and ride with me for a couple miles because they always put me in denial. And then I put on a fake damn smile
This is my world and it feels f*cked up
Always got a twirl in my brain, f*cked up
Goin for the Pearl. Gonna get ton bucks
Kinda wanna hurl these thoughts, upchuck
This is my world and it feels f*cked up
Always got a twirl in my brain, f*cked up
Goin for the Pearl. Gonna get ton bucks
Kinda wanna hurl these thoughts, upchuck
All my life we been f*ckin broke
Got the money and we make it choke
Never had ability to make it grow
Till one day came that we got new hope
Livin everyday full of f*ckin fear
Will the bills get paid or end right here
Think it's time to change. Hide away the tears
Can't stay the same cause I need new gear
All the damn comments telling me I suck
And I'm startin to believe em wantin to give up
Won't achieve my goals by hidin in the muck
So I try to continue workin for big bucks
This is my world and it feels f*cked up
Always got a twirl in my brain, f*cked up
Goin for the Pearl. Gonna get ton bucks
Kinda wanna hurl these thoughts, upchuck
Damn
You know, sometimes it's hard man
But I always get through it
But as much as I fail, I grow everytime
And I never been to jail. Only in my stupid mind
And I work so hard but maybe not enough
So I channel these thoughts into written lines
Tryna get better so that I can get the cheddar so I think of every letter and it might not work
In my brain I try to enter and get through the stormy weather but I end up putting pressure on it all, bad perk
Shit f*cks me up every single day
Never give up. Tryin hard to change
Want big bucks and I want the fame
But it's really hard when you're the one to blame
I ain't got no f*ckin clue what I'm doin
Lost sight of the goal now I feel I'm losin
Somethin in my head blockin good and bruisin
Try to keep on goin and pursuin
And I'm strugglin tryin to write this
Not sure if I'm good, thinkin I might quit
Thinkin I might be forcin lyrics
Not the way that I want to go about this
Livin everyday full of f*ckin fear
Will the bills get paid or end right here
Think it's time to change. Hide away the tears
Can't stay the same cause I need new gear
All the damn comments telling me I suck
And I'm startin to believe em, wantin to give up
Won't achieve my goals by hidin in the muck
So I try to continue workin for big bucks
This is my world and it feels f*cked up
Always got a twirl in my brain, f*cked up
Goin for the Pearl. Gonna get ton bucks
Kinda wanna hurl these thoughts, upchuck
This is my world and it feels f*cked up
Always got a twirl in my brain, f*cked up
Goin for the Pearl. Gonna get ton bucks
Kinda wanna hurl these thoughts, upchuck