Caleb Polaha - Up the Wall Lyrics

Feels like I'm fighting
To reach out to you
'Cause each time I do
All the things I've been hiding
Come right into view
And you see the truth
How I know what's right, but do what's wrong
And act like I can't stay strong
We both know that's just a lie
That I tell myself
So I can sleep at night
But I'm driving myself up the wall
I stay 'til three just to wait for your call
But I probably missed it
'Cause I couldn't hear past the sound of my voice
Saying the same thing that I've said for years
About how much I miss you and I wish you were here
But each time you have been
I run away when you give me the choice
And I take you for granted
'Cause I know you won't leave
So that move falls to me
I come back empty-handed
And I beg and I plead
Fall down to my knees
And I'm driving myself up the wall
I stay 'til three just to wait for your call
But I probably missed it
'Cause I couldn't hear past the sound of my voice
Saying the same thing that I've said for years
About how much I miss you and I wish you were here
But each time you have been
I run away when you give me the choice
I could apologize a thousand times
Every day and every night
That wouldn't make it okay
So when you look at me in the eyes
And tell me that it's all alright
I don't get why you don't say
That you're driving yourself up the wall
You stay up all night, you keep trying to call
But you don't get an answer
'Cause I don't want to hear what you're going to say
You tell me that I've said the same thing for years
And you don't know how you can make it more clear
You tried to stick with me
But you can't stop me from running away
And you're driving yourself up the wall
You stay up all night, you keep trying to call
But you don't get an answer
'Cause I don't want to hear what you're going to say
You tell me that I've said the same thing for years
And you don't know how you can make it more clear
You tried to stick with me
Yeah, but you can't stop me from running away
I'm done running away
Lord, help me stay