Homebody Video (MV)

The weight of the world is crashing down
Guess I'm dumb enough to tote it
People checking on me
I explained it when I wrote it
Hear the walls whisper
Doubts as I sleep
Juggle thoughts of quitting
But I'm in too deep
Frugality or fear
This verse is reflection
Another part of me
Trynna chase a perfection
That's unobtainable
When my failure is the knife
That cut the strings I used
To try to end my own life
I watch the world spin
Is it anger that possessed me
Insecurities that are
Trynna depress me
Look around my room
At mementos of the past
(And she a tear)
Cause life has been moving too fast
The ghost of regrets
Remains unchecked
I can't protect
Myself from all the pain
I gotta respect
Mother Nature
Cause she know when it shine
She only do it after it rains
My solitude is strength
Funny, I hate living alone
See the world through the lens
Of my friends made on the phone
Every word I write is a brick of foundation
Molded in the image of peace and jubilation
Navigate the shadows
While battling storms
Struggling
But I'm learning that I gotta transform
To achieve
Breathed life and love into soul
Cause I know that I still gotta role to play
A paradox
All of my comfort wrapped in chains
Planted the seeds and sowed the grains
A garden of resilience
Where my dreams take root
The homebody won't need no suit
Praise be to God
I rose to find purpose
Stuck to the plan
I'm praying that it's worth it
Cut off some fam and friends
They resurfaced
When too many people around
I get nervous

I think it's time I let go of the doubt
Stuck in my head, I think it's time to break out
My inner child got everything that I need
But I tucked him away, it's bout time he was freed
Buried the body, in the back of my mind
I just dug up his grave and found out he's alive
Made a mistake, I know it wasn't what it seemed
I pray that my soul can be redeemed

In these four walls
I feel smaller than bruised ego
Battle for the soul
Not trying to die the hero
Thoughts are a symphony
Yearning to be heard
They isolated but never deterred
Alone on an island
My mind is the enemy
Scared my facade is
Becoming my identity
I be trynna tough it out sometimes
(But then I start to doubt sometimes)
Heartbeat a triplet of pride
Grateful that I am alive
Faults not a reason for shame
Fixing them one at a time
Call on my mama to pray
I'm feeling strange
My little sister worried bout me
Clear that I need to change
See, I'm digging through the layers
Pulling pain to the light
Lonely at times
Only communicate with the mic
Building the path
So the kids not spilling the blood
(If the crypt full)
Know that I'm Noah before the flood
My purpose beyond me
Isolated mind for the visions they don't see
Tried to minimize everything that I don't need
But shut the casket on my soul
How am I the head of a label
When I never leave the room
Coulda swept my own porch
If I woulda jumped the broom
Am I aging out
Guess I'll find out soon
So I'll break the chains
Spitting my pain at every link
Staring in the face of my faults
And never blink
Words paint a picture
My hands cannot describe
Songs tell a story
That's slowly coming alive
I cannot pretend
I'm undeserving of success
When I been chasing my stability
Without any regrets
When I was sick
I took a moment
Started Looking at my life
And realized what I love
Ain't got a price

I think it's time I let go of the doubt
Stuck in my head, I think it's time to break out
My inner child got everything that I need
But I tucked him away, it's bout time he was freed
Buried the body, in the back of my mind
I just dug up his grave and found out he's alive
Made a mistake, I know it wasn't what it seemed
I pray that my soul can be redeemed

Praise be to God
I rose to find purpose
Stuck to the plan
I'm praying that it's worth it
Cut off some fam and friends
They resurfaced
When too many people around
I get nervous
Praise be to God
I rose to find purpose
Stuck to the plan
I'm praying that it's worth it
Cut off some fam and friends
They resurfaced
When too many people around
I get nervous