Lust Video (MV)

I made a list and I'm checking it twice
For somebody that could be my wife
Superficial with the things I like
I cross em out if the look ain't right
I ain't saying that I think that's okay
I been cautious of the things I portray
They send a text I might leave em in the doorway
Part of me wish they would go away
Cause I been fighting my demons
They are not leaving
Manipulating me
Not good expressing my feelings
Won't catch me feening
Why won't they set me free
It's only a couple that got me
I wanna stop me
Something keeps calling me
This just a part of my journey
It don't concern me
Least that's what I believe

I know it ain't right but I want it
I used to lie now I own it
This won't change that I want you
But it might change what I'm gone do
I gotta let go, let go
I gotta let go, let go let go
I gotta let go, let go
I gotta let go, let go of the thought of you

It's some women that I'd never ever say that I like
Least of all have the courage to put that on the mic
Couple of 'em that's me just avoiding a fight
Couple of 'em cause my morals always steering me right
Got a friend and she like girls
Wrote globetrotter she was my world
Sat back and I observed
Don't think I should mix words
I don't know who I can trust
All my choices based on lust
Actions motivated too
Don't know which are really true
If I named dropped then it might be rude
Then again what are they gone do
I been single way too long
I know what to blame it on now

I know it ain't right but I want it
I used to lie now I own it
This won't change that I want you
But it might change what I'm gone do
I gotta let go, let go
I gotta let go, let go let go
I gotta let go, let go
I gotta let go, let go of the thought of you

I gotta thing for some mother's and they daughters
I been working gotta get myself in order
They think I'm playing but it's really kinda sorta
I see twins that's the first thing imma order
I hate that I'm this way now
I wonder what could have made me this way
I wanna leave all these thoughts behind
I wanna live life a different way
First things first I'm sorry
For everything you ever heard about me
I won't lie and say it ain't true
But imma leave the judging up to you
I can't tell if it's the mind or the body that I like right now
Can't tell if it's better if I shut things down
Can't tell if I'm ever gonna live this down
Through it all this the worst thing that I found

I know it ain't right but I want it
I used to lie now I own it
This won't change that I want you
But it might change what I'm gone do
I gotta let go, let go
I gotta let go, let go let go
I gotta let go, let go
I gotta let go, let go of the thought of you